Sunday, December 31, 2006

End of the year recap! With an exclusive final thought...

Christmas was really good to me. I can tell you that I got every single thing that was on my Christmas list, and then some. Nothing to complain about in that regard. In just a few days, it will be 2007 and the BLOG of BRYAN will have made it through its first year, while I will have survived my 26th year - barely. LOL.

The first eight months, as you know, were a living nightmare. However, the final four months came to the rescue and saved the year from being a total bomb. Ever since Mike's end of the summer party back in September, this trying year took a dramatic turn for the better. Today marks the final day of the year 2006. What I would like to do is look back at some of the most significant moments of 2006 and recap them here at the BLOG OF BRYAN, before providing readers with a final thought. Here goes nothing:



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God?
February 16, 2006

This marked the prime of my disastrous and challenging trials to find real a job and escape the dark side that was being a waiter at the Olive Garden. Many felt I was at my very worst, practically unapproachable, as a result of being in a funk over my misfortune. This was around a time that I was having both family and girlfriend problems. It was at this time, on a ride home late at night from interviews in South Jersey, that I surely believe God channeled a one on one message to me on the way home, telling me that finding a job was going to be challenge, but I would eventually get there if I maintained my perseverance. Look where I am present day.

Great party caps off 2005-06 school year!
April 30, 2006

At this time, I had just broken up with a girl I was in a deep relationship with for three and a half years. Attending Frank's end of the school year party and hanging out with Colleen, Frank, and some other folks at Stockton was really a stroll down memory lane. I felt like I was going back to some of my old roots, as this party somewhat symbolized what my life was like in the three brief months, during my first semester at Stockton, before I got with Jaime. It symbolized that of going back in time, before getting into the relationship that went up in flames, and starting all over with the same exciting and fabulous times that I had experienced before she even came along.

Special Cinco De Mayo weekend!
May 6, 2006

What appeared to me to be the beginning of turning things around for the BETTER, and healing the wounds that ended a three and a half year relationship, was indeed a wonderful time, but unfortunately this weekend ended up being the opening chapter of a four month disaster. Four months of HELL. For months of wasted time - the biggest waste, as well as and most shameful time, of my life. Shameful, for not being a responsible male and doing what I should have done the previous month. This indeed began the deepest, darkest, and certainly most dramatic time period of my 26 year life.

I GOT A JOB!!!
June 27, 2006

This was indeed a great day. Perhaps the highlight of a horrible summer, as well as possibly the best thing that happened to me 2006. This marked the end of my tour of duty as a server busting his ass to make small chump change.

Looking for the next chapter... hoping it comes with a bright light!
July 27, 2006

At this point of the summer, I began to realize just how much certain things and people in life had been shitting on me for the previous three months. This post here, I believe, was a hint brewing in my subconscious, that I needed to find something else and escape the horrors and darkness that were doing nothing but holding me down. I was a slave of my own delusions that I could fix things that were going to stay broken, and if anything, deteriorate even further. If I stuck around in that state, I may have indeed suffered a breakdown. Nobody is worth that, least of all her. This post marked the very beginning of me wising up. Once again, I should have been having these very same thoughts this during my two week break with girlfriend, right before the breakup, but love makes a person do some really CRAZY things. Instead, I was figuring out how to patch shit up and make things better. As a result, I did some very bad things, but human beings learn through trial and error. I learned that the hard way in Summer 2006. She was never worth the pain she caused, nor was she ever worth the shamefully uncharacteristic path my life gradually took as a result of how much I once loved her, when I made that terrible mistake on Memorial Day.

Finally focused on ME!
August 11, 2006

Hallelujah!!!! This is where the four wasted months of Hell ended -- and the healing process BEGAN! All of the adversity I had faced, mistakes I had made that I will never ever make again, and the things and people (person) that summoned evil forces from the deep depths of hell, for which I never knew could co-exist with a fine young man such as myself, were finally CUT OFF. This day marked the beginnings of a comeback for me as well as the year 2006 (or what was left of it). This very moment right here was revolutionary. This post was the fortunate result of the thoughts I had maintained and posted about in the previous significant moment post of 2006.

Great weekend so far!!!! Getting ready for Surf Club...
September 9, 2006

Classic weekend!
September 11, 2006

The revolution in 2006 continues almost a month later. These two posts, related to Crazy Mike's Labor Day End of the Summer weekend party, marked the beginning of many exciting times and enchanting surprises that were to come my way for the remainder of the year. After the rain and the pain, comes the healing, and eventually the sunshine. What a great fucking weekend this was! This will clearly be remembered as one of 2006's most delightful weekends for the non-stop happiness it brought to some of my friends and I.

Aftermath: Birthday Celebration North!
November 6, 2006

Aftermath: Birthday Celebration South!
November 10, 2006

This was one of the most exciting weekends of 2006, due to the fact it was the celebration of the World's Greatest birthday! It was an ultra spectacle, during which I proved that one's life doesn't go straight to hell after one passes the age of 25. Over the years, I've heard so many people say, "It's over after you're 25. Bullshit! This was a spectacular weekend, in which I went to Morristown with Billy and Jimmy, hooked up with a semi paralyzed chick, got spanked by an aspiring porn star, and hung out with some close friends from the college days in South Jersey, where they took me to Hard Rock Cafe in Atlantic City.

Rocky Balboa - in theaters tomorrow night!
December 19, 2006

How does one respond to learning that a move is being delayed another six months? One gets ready to go see a great flick at the theater, and that's just what Rocky Balboa turned out to be. It was a super flick; one that more than compensated for the less-than-stellar previous installment (Rocky V) of the series.

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Final thought of 2006:

When life hits you with drama, it hits you harder than a mack truck. When shit hits the fan, it all hits the fan at once and splashes onto your face at full force. Sometimes, it is the person who can take the shit for what it is, pick up a clean towel, and wipe his/her face off, that learns from the adversity and moves on easier than others would. As Rocky eloquently put it, "it's not how hard to can hit. it's how hard to you get hit, and keep moving forward." But you gotta be willing to take the hit. In 2006, I took quite a few hits, but I kept moving forward and eventually moved on completely. After a while, one must ask one's self, "do I care about everyone else but me, or do I care about ME?" It is kind, hospitable, and morally ideal to care about others. But when one can not care enough about one's self, and lets one's focus completely drift away to focus solely on others, that is when one crosses the line of what is acceptable and what is not. Remember to be good to yourself, as well as everyone else and don't let anybody - ANYBODY - make you who you are. You be who you want to be. You do what you want to do. One must do what one must do. If it feels good, do it. If it does not feel good, it just isn't right.

Alright, fuck it. Enough with the Jerry Springer-isms. Everyone have a safe and enjoyable New Year's Eve celebration, and I wish everyone a Happy New Year!!! Remember to take others into consideration, but also remember to treat YOURSELF the right way, know when it's time for work, and when it's time for playtime. Remember to visit Blog of Bryan in 2007.

Peace.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas to ALL!

Today is once again Christmas Day. In the sense that it comes around once every 364 days a year, it is a day like any other day.

For those who celebrate Christmas, however, it is a special day of peace, joy, and good will that separates it from any other day. Thankfully, my family and I all received some beautiful gifts.

I received many pairs of different dress pants that each look really classy, a watch, a bottle of my Cool Water Cologne, wines, skin creams, and utensils and other gifts for the move which is now tentatively rescheduled for May. I could not be happier with how I made out this Christmas. Later this evening, I will be enjoying Christmas dinner with my family.

Sometime during the week of New Years, we will be having distant relatives over for the holidays, relatives who I have not seen in twenty some odd years. That should be somewhat interesting, if I do say so myself.

Within the next few days, I will be sure to post some New Year resolutions that I will do my damnest to meet come the new year. Also, there will be an exclusive Blog of Bryan post that takes a look back at the year 2006, a post that will be concluded with a Jerry Springer-like final thought.

That will probably happen at some point prior to January 1, when I get bored enough. LOL.

Once again...

Merry Christmas to ALL, and to ALL a great day and evening!

Friday, December 22, 2006

Working and working out this holiday season!

My posts here at the Blog of Bryan really have been few and far in between lately. Between the holiday shopping, and my gym work, December has been a rather busy month.

Did I say gym work? Yes, about a week and a half ago I rejoined Quest Total Fitness. As I said earlier, I needed to join a gym ASAP, and I am going to be living here until May now, so why not rejoin Quest? The workouts have been good for me. What I am looking to do is reduce my body fat and replace it with muscle. First order of business is to shred some weight by doing cardio. Everyday, I run for atleast 30 minutes and do stomach crunches. Those two aspects of my exercise are utilized every single day I'm at the gym.

Rocky Balboa, the sixth installment of the Rocky series now playing in theaters, is an excellent movie. Two nights ago, on the opening night, I was joined by all of my friends from home at the brand new theater at the Rockaway Mall to see it. Awesome movie. Perhaps the best movie in the series, in terms of the dialogue, since the release of the original film thirty years ago. Might we have a Best Picture 2006 award on our hands for this fine film? Time will tell. I thought it was an excellent movie and a must-see for Rocky fans.

It is hard to believe that Christmas is just three days away. This really came quick. Each year, it seems to come quicker and quicker. Tomorrow morning, Scott and I are rolling up to the mall to complete our Christmas shopping and also do lunch. We'll definitely be making an afternoon out of it.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Rocky Balboa - in theaters tomorrow night!

A special congratulations to Colleen for graduating on Sunday!
Congratulations to all of the Stockton graduates of Fall 2006.

Sorry for the lack of updates folks, but I have been a busy man as of late. This past weekend, I was at Greg Root's holiday celebration at his house in Riverton.

We all had a wonderful time together, as Ray, Melissa, Jack, Crazy Mike, Greg (of course), some of his friends from work, and myself were all present at the party. On the way home, Jack and I (Jack being the one who drove me down to Gregs, because he also lives up in North Jersey), managed to get lost in North Philly. Fortunately though, we phoned Mama Root and managed to get home safely.

On the way home, we stopped off at Jack's apartment so he could pick up his ether net cable from his apartment off campus, as well as his check book. We went to Stockton, from that point on, and ran into Colleen, who had just returned to her apartment from her graduation seriously. An emotional Colleen, tearing up, gave Jack and I a hug and thanked us for coming by to see her.

As you know, the move is not taking place until May. Colleen wanted a little bit more time to save up some cash, so she managed to find an apartment (very few of them left) on campus, where she could live for one semester - her first semester - of graduate school this January. The administration was able to make an exception in this case, so she has a place to stay for her first semester of graduate school. Therefore, the move is being targeted for May.

Now, getting the point of this post, I would like to inform everyone that Rocky Balboa will be opening in theaters tomorrow night. About 15 of my friends and I will all be rollin' up to the theater to view the very first showing of the movie at 8pm. At 6pm, we'll be tailgating in the parking lot! LOL. Yes, that is how big of an event and big of a movie this really is to all of us. This is going to be HUGE.

ROCKY BALBOA - get out to theaters tomorrow night and go see a great movie.

For more, check out the official Rocky Balboa Movie Website as well as the Rocky Balboa Blog.

It ain't over 'til it's over.

Monday, December 11, 2006

Move is officially DELAYED to either May or September!

I need to join a gym!

Good evening to all of my readers, family, friends, fans, and stalkers alike. The first order of news today is that my move to Central Jersey with Crazy Mike and Colleen has officially been postponed! Why is this the case? Understandably, Colleen wants the chance and the time to go back home and save up some money before we make this much anticipated move.

Finding work, down by school in South Jersey, has been somewhat of a struggle for Colleen. Saving up a large sum of money is certainly what one needs to do when taking into consideration that we are going to be living together and making this important move. Therefore, Colleen is putting off her first semester of graduate school at Monmouth University for either May or September. I believe May would serve us much better in terms of the time we move, due to the fact that many students are coming to the very end of their annual leases.

If we are to find a nice place to live right now, and there happens to be a massive waiting list, we can hop on the waiting list right now and possibly land a spot when May 2007 rolls in months down the line. Perhaps our move, my GMAT originally being scheduled to take place around the same time, the holidays, Colleen's upcoming graduation, and my birthday all contributed to placing excessive pressure on the three of us.

My current idea is to try and jump onto a waiting list for a suitable apartment that we could potentially move into around the month of May. We will see what happens in the coming weeks and months. Looking back, in hindsight, perhaps everything coming together at once was too much for everyone who was involved.

My mother, I believe, was truly looking forward to this move in January as well. Deep down inside, I feel as though she would like to see me move out, grow up some more, and be able to live on my own and pay my own bills. When I broke the news to her yesterday, her immediate facial expression appeared to exude disappointment. Taking that into account, perhaps she was a bit sad because something(s) my family is getting me for Christmas is relevant to this move that was scheduled to happen for next month.

Asking her why she gave me that facial expression, she responded, "You'll understand soon." I asked, "what is it that I will understand later on that I won't now?" She answered, with something that weirdly resembled a mixture of sadness and a smile, "I don't have to tell you right now."

I really do not know what is going on, but I can only hope that the holidays will be drama free, the fun I have been having with my people continues to happen, and the holidays bring everyone great pleasure and happiness. Everyone in the group must have financial security, must not be scared, and must be ready to step up and make this happen. It is understandable. Rest assured, this move has not been cancelled; it has merely been pushed back. The move will happen.

For the time being, I just want to keep raking in the money, keeping any drama at a minimum, and enjoying the holidays. Lately, I have also had a burning desire to join a gym, but I must find a decent gym to join. Quest Total Fitness is not bad at all, but it is the only Quest Total Fitness in existence. There are many Golds Gyms and other gyms in the area that well-known companies with various locations. I'm just concerned that if I pay for annual membership at a gym, and then move at a later time, that I will not be able to breach the contract. I will talk more about it with Bill, who used to work at Quest years back.

At this time, I really have a burning to desire to whip my ass into shape and get into the best shape of my life. In order to do that, I need a gym membership. Working out at the gym would lead me to feel better about myself, feel much healthier, and look even more physically appealing than is the case right now (which is still pretty attractive).

Friday, December 08, 2006

Dress down Friday becomes duck out Friday!

Today is once again dress-down Friday here at work. You know how much I love those! I get to wear jeans, regular shoes or sneakers, and one of my normal shirts. To put it bluntly, I get to wear my street clothes.

Apparently, it is also going to be a Friday in which I get to duck out early. Hardly anybody is here on the floor right now. According to my supervisor, there is supposed to be some sort of massive business lunch going on somewhere and nobody is going to be here for the rest of the day, so I get to leave early. Hurray for me!

Last night, I met up with Bill at Murphys in D-town. This night was not unlike that of Thanksgiving Eve, at which everyone and their fucking brothers and sisters were packed into this bar. There were a number of heads from the Dover High School days, including Becky Kovach, Steve Cicchetti (who is now a police officer), Brian Williams, Thanasi Haralambopoulos, Lauren Bahnaka, Frank Casale, Alison Wood, Amanda Rosner, Doversity's own Halashan Sianipar, and Vishal Parmer. As it was eightys night at Murphys, the bar was selling 80 cent Coors Light drafts, so I bought as many of them as I could before they eventually ended the deal, ran out of Coors Light, or perhaps both.

We all were totally crunked off our asses. Walking over to the restroom, I also ran into Erin (AKA Shithead back at school) who actually went to Stockton at one point. She eventually left Stockton and transferred to Montclair State. Bill and I also met Becky's friend Melissa, who we had previously seen at Murphy's on Thanksgiving Eve, but I was too busy hooking up with fiances and getting myself into other rebellious entanglements to be able to introduce myself to her that night.

Last night, after we finished our night of fun at Murphys, I drove directly to Bill's house and slept over there. Quite a wild evening of drunkeness. I felt it when I woke up this morning.

Friday, December 01, 2006

Survey: The Dirty Thirty

The Dirty Thirty... 30 unknown facts/secrets about yourself:

1. What ended your last relationship?
This question pops up so frequently in these surveys. I told you this ONCE. Here we go again. LISTEN UP. LAST TIME. Dishonestly, lack of loyalty, lack of openmindless, and I'm not a professional mind reader. I like ppl to tell me whats up. But like a drug that I was hooked on for too long, she made me do certain things totally uncharacteristic of me. Much like a bad drug, I had to go to rehab and get rid of what was causing the problem so I would never make the same regretful mistakes again.

2. When was the last time you shaved your legs?
36 minutes ago. Ummmm, how about never? LOL

3. What were you doing ths morning at 8am?
Tail end of my beauty sleep... 20 min to go before I had to get my ass out of bed.

4. First thought after waking up?
It can't possibly be time for me to get ready for work.

5. Are you any good at math?
Decent

6. Your prom night?
hahaha, did I go?

7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
Not really, I'll be the first in the family.

8. Have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school?
Yes, and I'm paying it back right now. Not nearly as high as most people in the same situation whom I have conversed with regarding the matter.

9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile?
Pretty much, yeah.

10. Last thing received in the mail?
Capital One balance

11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
Five. One cup of coffee, 3 bottles of Propel, and large Wild Cherry Pepsi with my dinner at Taco Bell.

12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machines?Sometimes.

13. Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to?
Oh no. I'm STILL a CONCERT VIRGIN! :O

14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
Oh most def. That's what all the cool people do at the beach!

15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
drilling of the teeth

16. What is out your back door?
16X32 inground pool, currently covered because our so-called winter is coming up, but it feels like fucking borderline summer-fall right now. I LOVE IT!

17. Do you have any plans for tonight?
it's a mystery!

18. Do you like the ocean?
Absolutely!!! Moving down there next month!

19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinds?
Probably at some point.

20. Have you ever been to a planetarium?
in elementry school on a field trip.

21. Describe everything you're wearing:
Plad-blue hanes boxer shorts, khaki-colored shorts.

22. Something you are excited about?
The Xmas Holiday, New Years, my resolutions, and THE MOVE.

23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
Cherry

24. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
I believe they are now deceased.

25. Describe your keys:
house key, car key, key for the gate to the backyard, and key for the drawer to the desk in my cubicle at work. I also have my employee ID on the keychain, so I don't lose it as easily.

26. Where do you keep your change?
pant pockets and glove compartment in my car, so I can pay the tolls on the highways.

27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?
probably college course presentations dating back to 2005.

28. What kind of winter coat do you have?
I gotta get a new one.

29. What was the weather like on your graduation?
Blustary. I graduated in December 2005, and it was FREEZING!

30. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed?
Closed.