The first eight months, as you know, were a living nightmare. However, the final four months came to the rescue and saved the year from being a total bomb. Ever since Mike's end of the summer party back in September, this trying year took a dramatic turn for the better. Today marks the final day of the year 2006. What I would like to do is look back at some of the most significant moments of 2006 and recap them here at the BLOG OF BRYAN, before providing readers with a final thought. Here goes nothing:
February 16, 2006
This marked the prime of my disastrous and challenging trials to find real a job and escape the dark side that was being a waiter at the Olive Garden. Many felt I was at my very worst, practically unapproachable, as a result of being in a funk over my misfortune. This was around a time that I was having both family and girlfriend problems. It was at this time, on a ride home late at night from interviews in South Jersey, that I surely believe God channeled a one on one message to me on the way home, telling me that finding a job was going to be challenge, but I would eventually get there if I maintained my perseverance. Look where I am present day.
Great party caps off 2005-06 school year!
April 30, 2006
At this time, I had just broken up with a girl I was in a deep relationship with for three and a half years. Attending Frank's end of the school year party and hanging out with Colleen, Frank, and some other folks at Stockton was really a stroll down memory lane. I felt like I was going back to some of my old roots, as this party somewhat symbolized what my life was like in the three brief months, during my first semester at Stockton, before I got with Jaime. It symbolized that of going back in time, before getting into the relationship that went up in flames, and starting all over with the same exciting and fabulous times that I had experienced before she even came along.
Special Cinco De Mayo weekend!
May 6, 2006
What appeared to me to be the beginning of turning things around for the BETTER, and healing the wounds that ended a three and a half year relationship, was indeed a wonderful time, but unfortunately this weekend ended up being the opening chapter of a four month disaster. Four months of HELL. For months of wasted time - the biggest waste, as well as and most shameful time, of my life. Shameful, for not being a responsible male and doing what I should have done the previous month. This indeed began the deepest, darkest, and certainly most dramatic time period of my 26 year life.
I GOT A JOB!!!
June 27, 2006
This was indeed a great day. Perhaps the highlight of a horrible summer, as well as possibly the best thing that happened to me 2006. This marked the end of my tour of duty as a server busting his ass to make small chump change.
Looking for the next chapter... hoping it comes with a bright light!
July 27, 2006
At this point of the summer, I began to realize just how much certain things and people in life had been shitting on me for the previous three months. This post here, I believe, was a hint brewing in my subconscious, that I needed to find something else and escape the horrors and darkness that were doing nothing but holding me down. I was a slave of my own delusions that I could fix things that were going to stay broken, and if anything, deteriorate even further. If I stuck around in that state, I may have indeed suffered a breakdown. Nobody is worth that, least of all her. This post marked the very beginning of me wising up. Once again, I should have been having these very same thoughts this during my two week break with girlfriend, right before the breakup, but love makes a person do some really CRAZY things. Instead, I was figuring out how to patch shit up and make things better. As a result, I did some very bad things, but human beings learn through trial and error. I learned that the hard way in Summer 2006. She was never worth the pain she caused, nor was she ever worth the shamefully uncharacteristic path my life gradually took as a result of how much I once loved her, when I made that terrible mistake on Memorial Day.
Finally focused on ME!
August 11, 2006
Hallelujah!!!! This is where the four wasted months of Hell ended -- and the healing process BEGAN! All of the adversity I had faced, mistakes I had made that I will never ever make again, and the things and people (person) that summoned evil forces from the deep depths of hell, for which I never knew could co-exist with a fine young man such as myself, were finally CUT OFF. This day marked the beginnings of a comeback for me as well as the year 2006 (or what was left of it). This very moment right here was revolutionary. This post was the fortunate result of the thoughts I had maintained and posted about in the previous significant moment post of 2006.
Great weekend so far!!!! Getting ready for Surf Club...
September 9, 2006
September 11, 2006
The revolution in 2006 continues almost a month later. These two posts, related to Crazy Mike's Labor Day End of the Summer weekend party, marked the beginning of many exciting times and enchanting surprises that were to come my way for the remainder of the year. After the rain and the pain, comes the healing, and eventually the sunshine. What a great fucking weekend this was! This will clearly be remembered as one of 2006's most delightful weekends for the non-stop happiness it brought to some of my friends and I.
Aftermath: Birthday Celebration North!
November 6, 2006
Aftermath: Birthday Celebration South!
November 10, 2006
This was one of the most exciting weekends of 2006, due to the fact it was the celebration of the World's Greatest birthday! It was an ultra spectacle, during which I proved that one's life doesn't go straight to hell after one passes the age of 25. Over the years, I've heard so many people say, "It's over after you're 25. Bullshit! This was a spectacular weekend, in which I went to Morristown with Billy and Jimmy, hooked up with a semi paralyzed chick, got spanked by an aspiring porn star, and hung out with some close friends from the college days in South Jersey, where they took me to Hard Rock Cafe in Atlantic City.
Rocky Balboa - in theaters tomorrow night!
December 19, 2006
How does one respond to learning that a move is being delayed another six months? One gets ready to go see a great flick at the theater, and that's just what Rocky Balboa turned out to be. It was a super flick; one that more than compensated for the less-than-stellar previous installment (Rocky V) of the series.
Final thought of 2006:
When life hits you with drama, it hits you harder than a mack truck. When shit hits the fan, it all hits the fan at once and splashes onto your face at full force. Sometimes, it is the person who can take the shit for what it is, pick up a clean towel, and wipe his/her face off, that learns from the adversity and moves on easier than others would. As Rocky eloquently put it, "it's not how hard to can hit. it's how hard to you get hit, and keep moving forward." But you gotta be willing to take the hit. In 2006, I took quite a few hits, but I kept moving forward and eventually moved on completely. After a while, one must ask one's self, "do I care about everyone else but me, or do I care about ME?" It is kind, hospitable, and morally ideal to care about others. But when one can not care enough about one's self, and lets one's focus completely drift away to focus solely on others, that is when one crosses the line of what is acceptable and what is not. Remember to be good to yourself, as well as everyone else and don't let anybody - ANYBODY - make you who you are. You be who you want to be. You do what you want to do. One must do what one must do. If it feels good, do it. If it does not feel good, it just isn't right.
Alright, fuck it. Enough with the Jerry Springer-isms. Everyone have a safe and enjoyable New Year's Eve celebration, and I wish everyone a Happy New Year!!! Remember to take others into consideration, but also remember to treat YOURSELF the right way, know when it's time for work, and when it's time for playtime. Remember to visit Blog of Bryan in 2007.