Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Retracted statements out of good faith!

Here at Blog of Bryan, I would like to retract some statements that were initially made on here a couple of weeks ago. While checking out my stats and tracking the visitors who come to my website, I realized that Bank of America had been tuning in for the past couple of weeks and I wanted to put this retraction on the record for all of those insightful minds and observant pairs of eyes to see.

There was an update that I had posted on here a couple of weeks ago regarding Sales Manager Darcie Gore, whom I briefly worked for. I had used a vulgar term merely as a parody because it rhymed with her last name, but it was clearly written out of anger. It was written out of anger with the intentions of being a tasteless joke resulting from my dislike for her. I personally did not care for that woman at all, nor do I like her for the way she handled her business with me and the way she discharged me as well as her ridiculous reasons for discharging me. I could not stand that woman one bit, and I still can not stand her, but that shouldn't be motive to diminish her reputation in anyway even if it was sick humor.

The point of the matter is, the section of the post that was related to Gore was written out of anger and regret. Darcie Gore is NOT a whore, I was not calling her a whore, and I have not one iota of proof that she is in fact a whore. She is merely a Sales Manager of a mortgaging department; those are the only facts that I have of her. Any and all of the sick twisted humor I used to describe Gore was solely based on a joke. It was what it was, humor.

As a genuinely respectful person, out of good faith, I wave aside my rights to Freedom of Speech and apologize for that post and any harm or concern that it may have brought my audience. The post has been removed. Thank you.

Monday, July 30, 2007

Sports gambling legalized in Atlantic City??

Days ago, at Boxingtalk.com which happens to be high on the list of favorite websites at Blog of Bryan, writer Matthew Goldstein reported that Atlantic City, NJ is considering the legalization of sports gambling in their casinos. Las Vegas has had a sports book for years now, and it would be nice to see Atlantic City start one as well.

According to Goldstein's article, Atlantic City has experienced a decline in their revenue as a result of newly implemented slot machine venues in Pennsylvania and Delaware. These slot machine parlors are expanding. Sports gambling in Atlantic City can only draw more fans and gamblers to big fights that take place there and increase an interest in Atlantic City boxing matches that had never previously existed.

Should Atlantic City open a sports book, I would certainly be inclined to bet some money on fights that happen there or even in Las Vegas. My plan is open a separate bank account, just for boxing gambling money, and use that money towards my bets. The idea is to save up about $2,000, solely for the gambling, and spend no more than five percent of the money in that account on fighters - underdog fighters - who I believe have excellent chances of winning their boxing matches.

This potential opportunity for gambling in Atlantic City is an opportunity that could come a year or even two years down the road. Some people are expert poker players, others are notorious for their earnings at the Black jack tables. That's their edge, if you will, for making some extra money in the casinos. My edge in the casinos would come through the sport of boxing, due to the fact that I know the sport inside out as well as the athletes and what they're capable of.

When and if sports gambling does happen make its debut in Atlantic City, it would be a beautiful thing for the city, for the sport of boxing, and for yours truly who has high aspirations of somehow making money from the sport I love so dearly.

My first day back to work is officially tomorrow!

I come from from strong stock! Anybody can fall, just as I fell hard earlier this summer, but realize that I am coming back with a bang, in what will be an inspiring rise to prominence and success!

Today's quote of the day on this website is from Socrates, stating, "Wisdom begins in wonder." I like that quote, so I decided to keep on record here in today's post.

I would like to thank my mother for her help in recent weeks. It is greatly appreciated. I also thank my friends for their help and concern. Tomorrow is my first day of work at the new job. Back to work once again folks. Let's hope they come correct and this job lasts a little longer. I would like to remain there for at least a year. The time has finally come to get back into the grind and get back into the scheme of normal everyday life, rather than doing absolutely nothing, bringing in no income, and not getting bills paid! I'm excited to be getting back.

We all know I haven't had the greatest luck lately, but I am hoping that is all going to change and I will once again be able to bank a little money starting tomorrow. I am also attempting to help my mother resolve the issues that are going on with the household right now. Those are indeed personal issues, and there has surely been enough bad luck circulating in that vicinity, but we're working on turning that around into a positive situation. The sooner the better. In the meantime, it is time to build up the bank account again so I can rebuild and restructure my life into a more respectable status and help out with the predicament going on at home.

Ladies, gentlemen, family friends and fans, it all begins tomorrow! Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life. I am B-Money and I am going to turn this shit around, effective tomorrow. I will take this one day at a time. Time is money. B-Money is money. B-Money's time is now! This is my time and it is time to rid myself of bad luck and make some good luck happen. As my mother told me earlier today, "just remember that you come from strong stock!" She was accurate with that assessment.

Remember folks, I was down at an all time low. Yes, I can fall just like anyone else in the world regardless of what some might think when they tune into this website and read these ramblings. There isn't anyone or anything out there that can or will hold me down forever. I may fall, as I fell pretty damn hard earlier this summer, but I am on the come back trail. I do start working again tomorrow, so realize that B-Money is indeed coming back in what will be an inspiring rise to prominence and success!


Sunday, July 29, 2007

I'm coming back larger than life: Let the rebuilding process begin!

This turbulent and demoralizing avenue that my life has taken has been frustrating, scary, and stressful to say the very least, but I'm going to thoroughly demonstrate that I am the come back kid and I will be back to where I was and then some within a week or two.

Here I am once again to give ya'll the real inside exclusive on what's been going on. I would definitely say that this update is a little more positive than the previous one. For one thing, I finally got a new job. The position is in a sales department, but I do not work on commission. I work with the folks who work on commission, which is a fine by me. I prefer working for salary than commission anyway.

This position is not as financially lucrative as those that I had been searching for, but I accepted it because I need to make money. After six months, provided that I do a good job, I get a raise. That's always nice. After a year, I get paid vacations which is another beautiful feature that comes with the job. My benefits are pretty nice as well. The start date for this job is on Tuesday, but that will kick off my training period. Brief training is to be conducted prior to the start of the job due to the fact that I must gain some product knowledge.

Location for this job is down in Piscataway, which is somewhat of a commute from my current residence, but it's all. I have made longer commutes to work before, so this is no big deal. On a bright note, I will located pretty close to the company Ray works for. As a result, we already have tentative plans to met up for dinner on Thursday night. There is also excellent chance that Crazy Mike and his girlfriend Angela will be joining us that evening for dinner. I look forward to having dinner with my friends that night when I get out of work. It should be a nice little prelude to the exciting times that we have coming up weeks down the line.

Hours for this job are Monday to Friday, 8am to 5pm, which is my preferred availability. In terms of the name of the company, I am not at liberty at this moment to discuss the name of the company here at Blog of Bryan. If you want to know the name, or the details of the company, feel free to ask me in person. Down the line, the name of the company will be announced on here. I just don't feel like discussing that at this time.

What's most important is, I got a new job at a time when I really needed to get one. After the drama that went down between Bank of America and I, life had taken somewhat of a downward turn. I'll be quite honest, I felt like I was being swirled around in the depths of Hell. What do champions do? They come back. I am on the comeback trail from the trials and tribulations that I have faced and suffered from in these past few weeks. Aside from that, there is also some personal problems going on at the homestead, but I am in the process of guiding the family and helping them iron out those matters.

This turbulent and demoralizing avenue that my life has taken has been frustrating, scary, and stressful to say the very least, but I'm going to thoroughly demonstrate that I am the come back kid and I will be back to where I was and then some within a week or two. There is a weekend on the horizon that I am looking ahead to with great anticipation. On the weekend of August 10-11, Crazy Mike is having another one of his weekend long get-togethers at his beach house in Lavallette. All of his close friends, myself included, always look forward to these exciting times down at the shore with our courteous and hospitable friend from college.

What will likely set this particular weekend apart from others is the fact that we're planning on going to Hurricane Harbor. I don't recall ever going to Hurricane Harbor, but there's a first for everything. It's a water park, and this has been a hot fucking summer, so I welcome the notion of getting drenched at a water park! Getting drunk (who are we kidding? getting WASTED - getting OBLITERATED!) is another activity that I eagerly anticipate, as I have not been drinking nearly as much in recent weeks as is usually the case.

As I discussed with my friend Ray the other day, these times have been stressful and I sorely need a weekend on which I can get away and let loose. Due to the unfortunate circumstances that life has recently dealt me, I've toned down the alcohol consumption, as well as many other things that I am accustomed to doing. The proposed August weekend at Mike's is sure to change all of that though, as it is sure to be the first exciting time of the summer since his last party that took place the first weekend of the summer back in June. Words can't describe how anxious I am for that weekend. Anticipation is rising.

Sometimes, when it appears that absolutely nothing can go right and that life is 100% bad luck, one needs to get back what one had previously, and the way to do that is to go back to basics. As I was cleaning my room and doing laundry this weekend, going back to basics is what my mind was focused on. It is essential that I go back to doing the things that got me where I was when I was financially stable and felt as though I was on the top of them.

Not only will I do what it takes to get back to that pinnacle, I will rise above that point and create a new pinnacle, ascending to heights that I have never previously been. This is to be done by following short term goals, with an over all perspective of the long term goals and visualizing where I want to be even two or three years down the line.

I'm getting a little tired here, so come back again soon for further details.

Good night world!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

This bad luck can't possibly go on FOREVER!

Lately it feels as though life is taking me for a whirl through the depths of hell. Can there really only be bad luck in one's life without any good luck at all? I feel as though nothing good has really happened to me in the past six months or so. It has been a while since I posted a legitimate life-based post here at the BLOG OF BRYAN, so I figure now is the appropriate time to give ya'll the low down on the latest but far from the greatest.

My little stint with Adriana - the kindergarten teacher who may not have had the mostest after all - went up in flames. She did end up bringing me with her to Harrisburg, PA a couple weekends ago for an evening with her at her sorority sister's apartment. It was on that particular evening that she did a total 180 degree spin. On the drive home Sunday morning, the girl looked sad as hell and had a long face throughout the entire drive back to Jersey. Once she dropped me off at my house and returned home herself, she informed me that we would not good for each other in the long haul.

Upon suggesting that I hoped it wasn't the night in PA influenced her decision, she implied that there were some other things she was not pleased with. Well, if there were other aspects of my personality and character that she was not happy with or she found bothersome, why waste my time and bring me along with her on a trip to PA????? Especially on a beautiful weekend when I can be hanging out with other friends? Why put up that front and act like you like me when you really do not? The entire situation was a total mess - and on top of that - guess who was the one who was accused of NOT being truthful???? You got it - me! I wasn't the one leading someone on for two or three weeks, she was! Friends of mine have responded to this sequence of events with their beliefs as follows,

"she is the product of a severely sheltered home life .... she stopped seeing you out of fear or insecurity that you would stop seeing her .... she's scared and doesn't quite know how to accept affection or interaction with guys."

My final thought on that misfortune is that it's amazing how one can put up a front for weeks and give you every indication that one likes you, feels good seeing you, and that things between the two of you are getting better, only to do a 180 degree turn and suggest that it's not working and that you have bothersome traits that made the bond awkward throughout the entire process. It amazes me that one can put up such a front, be so fake, and then turn around and somehow claim the role of the victim by accusing me of not being truthful!!!!!!! She was leading me on the entire time by telling me lies that she really liked me, enjoyed hanging out with me, and that our bond was growing stronger and stronger. At what point exactly did I become the villain and she the victim????????? Whatever, it is over now and there is no time or need to cry over split milk. It's water under the bridge and this is entirely her loss.

This job situation is another string of horrific luck that currently plagues my life. Seems as though I have been on a gay lover's asshole-load of interviews lately and none of the interviews have been paying off at all! If I could only get paid for the number of interviews that I have gone on, I would probably be a millionaire at this time or damn close to it. On Monday, I took a special trip into Manhattan to conduct part 1 of a two part interview with a recruiter at Tower Legal for a job at Bear and Stearns in Whippany, NJ. Bear and Stearns is a financial/brokerage firm that is competitive with the likes of Morgan Stanley, Merryl Lynch, and Citigroup. I felt as though the interview in NYC went extremely well. I was told by the recruiter that human resources in the Whippany Bear and Stearns office (where I would be working) were pleased with my resume as well as my background. Furthermore, I was told that I was one of the very top candidates being considered for the position at hand. Therefore, I was eager to attend the second interview in the Whippany office which was scheduled for today at 11am.

This morning, I went to my interview and arrived on sight ten minutes in advance. To arrive right on time is no better than arriving late. Always gotta get there early to leave a lasting impression, so that is exactly what I did. I was interviewed by three employees in the department that I would be working in if I was to get the job. I felt as though I conducted myself properly and professionally throughout the interview. One thing that bothered me afterwards was the fact that none of these professionals had the audacity to hand me their business cards. With a business card, I would have had the proper contact information to send them a thank you letter for the interview. At that point, I called my recruiter in NY and suggested that I could possibly air mail them a thank you letter and put it to the attention of the folks who were courteous enough to interview me. The recruiter responded, "Don't bother. It appears that they have initially passed up all of the candidates for the positions at hand."

This was somewhat disappointing to me, but judging from the string of bad luck I have been having, I wasn't entirely surprised or shocked at this news. The recruiter continued, "The only reason why they passed you up at all is because your resume appeared 'jumpy' to them!" I was thinking to myself, WTF????? This is after the recruiter had faxed my resume to the company and received a positive response regarding the quality of my resume as well as my experience. Perhaps it was only human resources that had seen my resume, and not the folks who were interviewing me for the position I would be working??? Who knows? The whole situation stinks to high Heaven, but my recruiter assures me that I am not to be counted out just yet.

Apparently he made the company an even better offer to bring me aboard than he originally did. Reason being, he views me as by far the most viable candidate for the job and he has been working with Bear and Stearns for twelve years, so he knows an ideal candidate when he sees one. He made them an offer immediately after the company passed up all of the interviewees, so supposedly I am still in the mix even though I was turned down initially. A new offer is on the table for Bear and Stearns, so I guess we're back at square one again. I just wish I could run into some good luck for all of the effort I have been putting forth to improve my status and make my life better than it has been.

Am I destined for life-long damnation???? Sometimes I really wonder. This can't possibly be the case ladies and gentlemen. What is it with this year so far???? And I thought, up until August or September, that 2006 was not going quite the way I had hoped or anticipated. Good things began to happen around August or September of that year as well, so hopefully the shitty downward momentum that I have been subjected to begins to shift in a more positive direction. Is there really a higher power out there with intentions of totally destroying my life????

There's only so much of my life and its stability that can be destroyed and so much bad news that I can receive before something good inevitably happens. Something good eventually MUST happen. Even the recruiter admitted, "You have a had a string of bad luck lately, but it's not over with Bear and Stearns - I put out a new offer to them to bring you aboard because I believe you are the right person for the job. Even if Bear and Stearns does not take me up on the new offer, I have other opportunities that I will work on setting up for you." This was somewhat reassuring, but c'mon! I have been hearing this so-called reassuring news and promising statements for months now. It is about time that I see some RESULTS!

This summer, I have not gotten down to the shore as much as I have wanted. The last time I was there was the first weekend of summer. Colleen, Raph, Greg Root, and I spent that weekend down at Mike's. It was indeed a beautiful weekend and we all had to chance to do some tanning and go swimming in the surprisingly warm ocean water. Since that weekend, however, I have not had the chance to make it down there.

On August 11, Mike will be having another one of his get togethers at his Lavallette shore house. For the past few weeks, his shore house has been off limits due to a malfunction in the shower that required immediate repair as well as vacancy of all residents. Supposedly, the shower is just about fixed and his house will soon be operative once again. I look forward to hanging out with Mike, Greg, Colleen, Raph, Ray, Melissa, and all of the folks who make those enchanting weekends at Mike's worthwhile and possible. We're all due for another one of our hangouts and I am looking forward to it with great anticipation. Talks are under way for a day trip to Hurricane Harbor that weekend. We'll see what happens and see what my money situation looks like at that time.

I pray that this job situation gets better so I can go back to respectably living a prosperous life in which I get bills paid on time and have more than enough money to go out and have the fun that I am known for having.

British Signs: the British are some funny ass blokes!

Thank you Jack Horowitz for bringing these pictures to my attention via email. Jack poses an interesting question. Why are the British funnier than we are? Take a look at some of these pictures.

There are some really horny, perverted, and most of all, STUPID bastards out there who read this and probably take that pole up on its offer!

Brace yourselves: The Great One is coming back!

bigger and better than EVER!

This has been a year of adversity for yours truly, more than I have ever faced before. I haven't much to say at this time. My bed looks entirely too comfortable to remain awake. Realize this, I am coming back in a major way. Today, I will rise again! Within the next twelve hours, I have a very important interview upcoming. The year of adversity is about to be dealt with, because I am coming back, I am about to rise again, and I have only just begun. I will elaborate on this brief post very soon! Stay tuned for more, as I will have plenty to talk about.